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2007-02-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

mmm. the past weekend was ogl camp! and it was super fun. on friday, we went back to school to report at 1.30pm. then geraldine was sad cause it was as though she was sending us abroad. lol.

bah. anyway, we had to learn 3 dances by the end of friday. livin da vida loca, lets get it started and accidentally in love, the couple dance. it was quite nice learning them. especially livin da vida loca. lol! it was super nice and easy.

hmm. the food they provided was super lousy and the portions were very little, with loads of rice to finish. boo. good thing supper and breakfast were different from lunch and dinner. just bread and sandwiches were appetizing enough. heh.

*post not complete* will complete when i have the time. sry.

2007-02-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

sorry i haven't been able to blog for the past few weeks. I have been really busy and stuff.

Anyways, i'm really excited to get the new shoe i ordered from sheryl. There's gonna be custom made designs painted on the shoes! w00t. super excited. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh. i've got 9 raw for my O lvl results, and on my first try, i went to put vjc, mjc, sajc, then the rest of the choices were poly courses. when my father came home from work, he was like. 'WHAT?' lol. then he lectured me like mad, and i was like. '....' so i went to amend that thing and it became mjc, sajc,.... (the rest i forgot) ><

mmm. i'm officially lost in physics and chemistry. I have no idea what i'm gonna do! i have no idea what i'm learning, and i have no idea what and how to do the tutorials! man. i'm so screwed. i'm not even sure if i'm going to take the same subject combination. china studies in english is killing me. i haven't been able to complete the first assignment, which was 4 sourced based questions and i just handed it in like that. boo. how sloppy.

i wanna take 4H2s! but i'm afraid i'd die under the stress. its gonna be so much tougher in that 4H2 course. boo. and i'm not sure if i'm applicable for it anyways. meh. ~~i wanna be smarter!~~ ><

i like spending time with you. our little jewel box is gonna be filled in like 2 more weeks, and i'd have to get a bigger jewel box to continue filling in the memories. xD i'm madly in love with you.

i'm sorry if this is such a sucky post. i'm drifting alot. and i'm not having a clear mind right now. i'm really tired and i wanna sleep!

2007-02-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

i want all this jealousy to ~~disappear.~~

i want everything to be the way it used to be.

but all that's happening now

is just going to ~~worsen~~ in time to come.

sigh.

is everything just going to crumble down again?

please pull me out of this before i crack

2007-02-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

today was MJC's road race. And surprisingly, i was chosen to be mascot for MIRANDA! w00t!

i woke up at 5am, then supposed to take the first bus of 89. then meet pierre while on the way there. He was supposed to take the same bus at me. but he never turned up. lol. by the time i reach pasir ris park, it was almost 6am le. met lei zung and geraldine. then we waited awhile for jezer then we started leaving for the meeting area. (i was supposed to meet at 6.15am to dress up.) then jezer suddenly say must wait for jia bin cause she on the way to pasir ris mrt. wait awhile only i went to by bubble tea then they were all like. early morning you drink this won't get stomachache meh?

when we just nice reach the meeting area, the whole house committee already waiting for me. lol. (except for hanis and pierre that is.) then catherine and jezer started painting my face with black face paint and they tied all those mascot outfit thingy on me.

when we were finished, i was totally black, with a spiny back, a cap with long hair sticking out, having a brown tail and having super huge muscles made out of cotton wool. lol. it was super embrassasing. everyone like. 'eee so scary.' those comments hurt my feelings. luckily there were those that went, 0o so cool. lol. anyway, at that time, only like 7.15. but the first race start at 8.30. so sian. and the mascot run for miranda was like. at 9.50? i think? not sure. but it was quite awhile later.

anyway, by the time it reached our mascot race, the guy competitiors already reached the ending point la. super fast. run like mad dogs. lol. anyway, when we started, we ran like idiots. the j2s didn't wanna participate much so they were pretty much walking really slowly. then i had to keep stopping and wait for them to catch up. although there wasn't really much difference. then some guys started running for no apparent reason and then everyone started running until we eventually caught up with callisto. lol. then everyone started cheering 'catch up callisto catch up callisto ' lol. its actually the callisto cheer. bah. anyway, after that we stopped for quite awhile. then callisto was like. 'why you guys run so fast. lol.'

also, halfway during the run, people started calling me indian and black and everything. how insulting. lol. dam funny la. everyone from miranda. although it was only the jc1s. but i guess some of the j2s also had fun.

blah. when we were reaching the finishing line, the miranda people carried me and pierre up and we led house cheers up the hill. then those two guys that carried me cannot take it, let me down that time, make me fall down. so suay. lol. oh well.

durin prize presentation, jia bin and elizabeth won the prizes i think 6 and 4th respectively. not sure. can't remember. then after that when all house mascots supposed to go onto stage to intro ourselves, i was like. i'm mama man. i had not idea where that came from but. yea. it just did. and now eveyrone knows me cause of the mama man thing. lol.

MIRANDA WON HOUSE MASCOT COMPETITION. w00t. thanks house committee. love you guys for making that outfit. although it was really hot. Thanks everyone for making the road race fun.

after road race, wew went to erich's house to have movie marathon. we watched scary movie 4 and kungfu hustle then we left. hah.

meh. i guess this is all for today. if i manage to get the pictures for today's road race, i guess i'll post them on.

2007-01-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

The past week was super funny, with countless times of laughing till our heads almost popped off. Although i'm typing this post, but i can't really remember all of the details that happened throughout the week. So i guess i can only recall the events that occurred today.

Was supposed to meet at Tanah merah mrt station at 1pm today to go to Lei zung's hostel to study. Lol. Met geraldine at 11++ to study ourselves first, then go to the hostel. When we met, geraldine had her hair tied up into two ponytails, making her look like a stupid and retarded kid.

Went to white sands and then we didn't know where to go to study. Library? Or macdonalds? So we eventually decided to go to the library instead. Then that stupid kid had that intention of going into the children's section to sit on the seats that was like. 1/4 times my height. and the table was like 1/3 times my height. how'd you expect me to sit there and study? Lol.

Anyway, we eventually sat at some place. some corner and did like 1 question before we left. (super retarded) When lei zung called geraldine, i went to pick up and then i said hello, and lei zung was like hello hello? then i said hello? then he said hello hello again! lol! then he was like EEEEEEEE why you at the library? lol. super funny please. then when i finished talking to lei zung, he went to ask me to pass the phone over to geraldine, and then he said this. idiot and he hung up. super funny and retarded.

bah. we went to TM mrt then we met keith, and when we did, we realised that jezer and lei zung were still at parkway to buy jezer's guitar. Lol. and we waited and waited and waited and waited until we saw fame and her boyfriend, audi (on seperate occasions). Lol. that was like super long can. we waited for a grand total of 2 hours. ><

meh. then when we went over to the hostel, we ate mac and kfc la. then eat until like wad time. then me and geraldine had to go liao. so super lame la. today was super wasted day.

after that went out again and had super loads of fun. xD. new friends, new people, bah. today was wasted and fun. Lol.

2007-01-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today was our First ever Orientation group outing!

I had to have Lei zung give me a wake up call even though i had already set my alarm to go off at 7.00am. Lol. Although i was already awake by the time he called, i was still in bed, trying to get more sleep. Anyway, as i packed my bag, i didn't have a clue as to what to bring! I was like. 'Oh my gosh. What am i supposed to bring?' lol.

After bathing, i set off for pasir ris mrt, where we were supposed to meet at 8.30 sharp, with any late-comers having to perform a forfeit. Missing the 7.50 bus, i had to wait till 8.00 before the next bus came! i was like 'Ah! i don't wanna do forfeit!' Lol. Good thing i wasn't late. I reached the mrt station at 8.28. xD

We took bus 403 to pasir ris park, the one entrance with the spider web and playground. When we went down the bus, we saw this super cute kitten la! Dono why Hanis and dono who was scared of it. Its so innocent and stuff. Lol. It just loves to play. Then, Lei zung went to carry it and place it onto his skateboard, attempting to let him skateboard for awhile. When he placed it onto the skateboard, it just walked off. Lol.

Then, we went to the beach and sat there, and waited for pierre to come over. We sat on the huge rocks and then started playing weird games. Something like. 'Didididididididididididi' then 'piu!' thingy kinda games. Lol. Then i look up in the sky and saw this.

It was really nice! Haha. Then the next thing that happened was that Jerome taught a new game, with the 'Drinking Googles up' thing. That one was super funny la! You had to follow the flow of the hands and people tried to trick others by using different hands and stuff like that. Then they'd be like 'Wa lao. You trick me!' Lol.

When pierre came off the bus and started walking towards us, we started cheering like mad la! We did the pierre cheer and he was like. trying to cover his face with his tote bag. Lol. After the weird games, Pierre had to do his forfeit for being late by Kissing everyone on the cheek! Good thing he just faked it anyways. When we finished his forfeit, Sebastian was supposed to do his forfeit by dancing like a stupid red indian and singing the little red indian song. Lol. It was super funny la! Oh. While we were playing the games, a lady came up to us and offered us chocolate banana cake! Cause it was some little dude's birthday and as we took the cake, we sang a birthday song for that little man and then we went to wave at him! Lol. he was super cute and small la!

As we split up to do our own activities, Zhu song, Jezer and Jia bin went roller blading, Geraldine, Sharon and Genevieve went cycling, Pierre, Sebastian, Lei zung, Chin Hian, Keith, Johnathan, Ying Zhou, Zhi kang, Hanis, Zah, Jerome and I went playing Bball. Lol. Had lots of fun la. Then after that, we went to climb the spider web and stuff. Can't really remember wad happened after that. But we stopped playing BBall.

As the sky started turning dark, the other guys were still playing soccer la. Mmm. Even when it started raining, Jezer, Sharon, Hanis, Pierre, Geraldine, Lei zung and I were still playing on the rotating thing, trying to get it to rotate on its own, without the need of people pushing. Lol. Some laws of physics involved i think. The thing suddenly go so fast, then suddenly go so slow. When it went so fast, i fell off like twice but i landed on my feet. Unlucky Sharon and Geraldine, falling onto the sand. ><

Anyway. After playing with that rotating thing, it was still raining. And then i suddenly felt super emo. Started having tears roll down. >< RAWR.

Then suddenly, i had an idea. I told Lei zung to dunk Geraldine into the sea. And he went to tell pierre la. Then we all went over to the sea, and then. within seconds, Geraldine was already in the sea. then we each took turns to get dunked in the sea. Lol.

After getting dunked and stuff, we went burying Lei zung's legs in the sand. Then after he came out, we went burying Geraldine's legs in the sand. Lol. Super funny please. Then we went in search of a toilet to get washed up, to get rid of all the sand and the sea water. What we didn't know was that there was one toilet right beside the pavilion with our things. And we walked like quite a long while to get to a shop, where the uncle let us use the hose at the back. That hose was super strong and it shot a gush of water that hurt every time it contacted the skin. Lol. That was how strong it is. Then we were like. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Lol. The funny thing here was that Zhu song didn't wanna get wet, and since he was the one helping us wash off the sand from our shirt, there were times when he didn't stop the hose, and the gush of water just went striaght 'downthere'.

Bah. After the time at PSP, we went over to white sands to have lunch. And that was already about 3pm. Lol. We went to New York pizza to have pizza and it was super worth it. The food cost like $6.30 and we ate until we burst. Lol. Look at this.

This was how much food we ate. Jezer, Zhu song, Pierre, Hanis, Geraldine, Genevieve, Ying zhou, Lei zung, Keith and me. Lol. After eating, we talked until about 8.00pm. Lol. Super funny. There was 2 groups of people talking. The frevilous and the intellectual ones. Genevieve, Zhu song, and Ying zhou were talking alot about sense, Geraldine, Pierre and Lei zung talked alot on gossip, while me and jezer were switching here and there. Lol. While talking, we took some pics too. Lol.

Lol. Memories. Anyway, I also found out that Jezer and Genevieve had the exact same ambitions. They wanted to either be a lawyer, or a journalist. That's so totally cool please.

Mmmm. After we left New York Pizza, me and Lei zung sent Geraldine home, which was just a few blocks away from white sands. Then after that, we went our separate ways. I walked across the road and then waited for the bus. While waiting, i smsed Yvonne to 'suan' her of all the fun she missed today. Then she was totally pissed la. >< Sorry yvonne. ><

Thanks to all who have made this day special, unforgettable and everything else. There are some stuff which i've left out though, since i can't remember all of everything that happened today. Oh. There're some more pictures too. I'll post them once i get them from Hanis.

2007-01-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

Mmm. Due to the lack of access to the computer during the past days, i haven't been able to post the funny things that happened in school. I remember in Chemistry tutorial, Mr cheng was super funny. He kept making a fool of himself by trying to 'Suan' us. Lol. For example, he tried to shoot me by saying that i had feelings for a girl, linking it to Chemistry (which was something i don't know how they're linked to each other), and when he did that, i shot him back by saying that i loved him and asked him what he wanted for valentine's day and he was like 'Wa piang eh, you really look dam gay.' Lol. I think i really like Mr Cheng right now since he keeps giving us chance to make fun of him. Also, there have been many cases of 'self-jacking' by some guy in our class. Lol. How really stupid. Of course, i 'jacked' myself a couple of times, but it was nothing compared to how that guy 'jacked' himself. It was simply, retarded.

Anyway, things has never been the same ever since we were posted to our respective Civics groups. Lei zung was in a different class as me and I've never been the same again. I don't really have anyone to confide in. There're so many things kept within me during this time. Even the bond between me and Lei zung is just fading. I don't seem that close to him anymore. I feel lost.

Jealousy seems to be the cause of all the problems i'm facing. He seems to be trying to attract so much attention that i'm beginning to hate him. He tries to impress her so much by making a fool of himself and sadly to say, she laughs at him. Sometimes i wonder, why is it that this world is so unfair. But well, i guess. This is really, reality and there's nothing i can do about it.

I don't ever want to be the bad boy i used to be. I don't really wanna let history repeat itself. I want a new life. A new beginning. A new everything. But i guess everything's crumbling down.

Sigh.

2007-01-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

Today was super slack day at school. There was only erm, Chemistry and Physics lectures? And of course, the funny talks from some teachers.

Lol. Chem was expectedly boring since the lecturer went so fast with titration that i don't even know what she's teaching since i don't study pure science? zzz. She was on the second page and i'm still on the first. How disgusting.

Anyway, Physics was super duper funny la! Keith, Lei zung and i was right smack in front of the lecturer and every questions students answered, Lei zung was like 'Where's the M&M?' lol. The lecturer was giving out small packets of M&Ms to students for getting correct answers to his questions. Which was like. totally stupid and easy (although i really didn't understand wad he was asking for). lol. How retarded is that? Anyways, i can't really remember why we were laughing, but we laughed until i almost had stomachache. Lol.

After school, Lei zung was like asking me whether i wanted to go for the dance auditions, and i was like okay luh. But they started at 4.45pm and we ended school at about 12. How stupid. Lol. Plus, the dance people didn't even sms/call us back to go for the auditions la. I mean, if they wanted people to join and help them for SYF, they should actually call and inform us to bring along our PE t-shirts and shorts so that we can actually prepare and stuff like that right? zzz.

Anyway, since we had so much time to waste, we decided to go to the library and wreck our brains with the homework we had. Lol. We met Geraldine there and then she was like. 'Eh? Desmond i thought you finished your Chemistry tutorial le?' And i was. 'Eh? No wad. i do until 18 only.' Then i realised that everyone had already done until question 28, which was way ahead of what the teacher had expected us to do. How hardworking is Miranda 1 man. All the OGLs and seniors were like. How come you guys so hardworking de? Why never skip lecture? Why you guys all chiong to the lecture theatre de? Aiya, 1st three months for you to slack one la. But then Miranda 1 was like. Every break also go library study. Lol!

Anyway, Lei zung and i went on a quest to make Geraldine happy by making funny faces and really funny jokes. Lol. And she was laughing her head off la. Lol. Even Kai wan was like giggling and stuff. Then when we told them we were waiting for dance auditions, they were like, 'Eh? I don't believe. I think you guys lying to us.' Then me and Lei zung was like. -.-''' lol!

Its really funny in person. And its quite hard to depict the scene in words. Lol. You have to be there to see it for yourself, and experience the laughter we had during that time.

Today was quite sad too. Lei zung was going to another class although most of our OG members were together. Sigh. Good thing he has Zhu song to accompany him in the other class.

Mmm. I don't think there's anything else to write about anymore so, please come back another day to read the next post. Hah.

2007-01-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

I've finally decided to continue posting in this blog to keep it from rotting. How wonderful.

Anyway, many things have happened since i stopped blogging and it will take ages to type everything out so don't hope too much on having me post about what's happened during that time.

Oh well. Since its a new year, i guess i shall start blogging about the new year. Hah.

I was shocked to be posted into Meridien Junior College actually. I was thinking i'd be posted into Serangoon Jc instead. Since i haven't gotten a good L1R5 for my prelims. And when i came back from Las Vegas and Los Angeles, it was really a shocking thing to find Mjc's letter inside my mailbox. Hah.

Since i'm blogging right now, i guess i'll just mention some stuff about Zhonghua, my secondary school.

To all zhonghua secondary students, i pity you guys for having Miss Ow as Discipline mistress and having Mrs tobias as the new vice principle. This just makes them more and more arrogant. Someone should just bomb them up. Heh. Oh well. I guess right now its a disgrace to walk around in Zhonghua's uniform. I went back to help out with the Secondary 1 Orientation camp during the 1st week of school with some seniors and i was pissed off at how they made the camp. They had no plans of having a traditional flying fox for campfire; there was no consideration of how the campfire structure they were going to build (all the wood they had was simple plywood and other useless wood); Camp OIC was pissed off at seniors coming back to help out thinking that he can handle everything himself; Rush hour was screwed up since they had no help from seniors and it spoilt the tradition of Rush hour being the most interesting part of the camp. I have only one word to say to Zhonghua and it's future batchs. Good luck and have fun. I hope you guys get bombed some day.

Back to talking about Mjc, Orientation was really fun. Except for the part in which i went to school and saw that Daron was my OGL. lol. although there seems to be nothing right now. It still feels uneasy with him being my OGL. Well. i guess it was the start of a bad day then. However, things went better as we had no direct contact with each other and that we just went on with orientation. lol. on the first day, we learnt mass dances and i was shocked that Mjc Council actually cheorographed (however you spell it) a dance to Tokyo drift. Also, there was 2 others dances. One was a couple dance, accidentally in love, and the other, let's get it started. It was really hard dancing to Tokyo drift especially since we didn't learn it very well. lol. Everyone in the school waited for just the Chorus and the Intro. Since it was the easiest parts of the song. oh well. its quite hard remember stuff from 1 week ago.

The second day of orientation was much nicer. We went out of school, from Pasir Ris to Simei, to Tampines, To Bedok, all on foot. lol. retardedly gay. although during that time i got to talk to her more, it was something which turned out really bad. or should i say. good. I have no idea. lol. Considering the fact that right now, i'm really confused about the expressions she shows me. oh well. Back from sidetracking, i guess the second day was the really fun day of the orientation. Or so it was.

The last and final day of orientation at Mjc was much nicer. We got totally wet and everything. Water bombs were thrown, pails were toppled over people's heads, drenching them from head to toe. It was a really nice thing though. Lol. it was totally a fun day although everyone was soaking wet. We were released early to go home and get changed before the campfire that day. It was really fun since everyone was really high and enthusiastic. Hah. I recall what Elizabeth, Geraldine, Aza, Jezer and me did during that campfire. We chipped in our coins and Elizabeth went to the nearby vending machine to get Chips, sweets and stuffed them into my bag. What's more, she did it all alone. Lol. We didn't even know if it was allowed. She just walked off to the vending machine and bought all those food.

Of course, feelings between people developed during the orientation and stuff like that. Rumours and jokes made between people, gossip and much more. Lol.

Sadly, lectures started early this monday and everything was like Huh? I didn't know anything about what they were teaching since Mole concept was one of my really bad topics. Lol. Maths was disgusting too. Juggling method and partial fractions. (like we're gonna ever use it in society). The funniest days of the week was the ones with chinese lectures i suppose. The chinese lecturers made everyone laugh!

This is a quote of what the lecturer said:
'If you guys all talk, and I'm talking, who's actually listening? The visualiser?'

That statement made everybody laugh. lol. although its really lame, but he said it all in chinese. Which made it even funnier.

Oh well. There's nothing else much to say. since its been just 2 weeks since the year started.

I'm off and i guess i'll post another time.

2006-06-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today is YOUTH DAY AND BE YOURSELF DAY!

had a hard time with friends deciding on what to wear today since we were trying to wear all same colour. LOL. then Don said that he was gonna sms me telling me the colour. Then 10 o Clock he never sms, i call him. HE OFF HIS PHONE. -.-

In the end, wore brown with jeans and a brown belt. Then was supposed to meet rebekah at 6.50a.m at her place. then when i woke up, it was already 6.30a.m. so i was like WTF?. lol. so had to call my dad to fetch both of us to school. zzz

Then went to school. lester was the main highlight cause he brought his bling blings. and wore them like some american punk. haha. so EVERYONE participated in the BYD, which was so last minute. cause the whole class suddenly made the decision together to do that.

then got that stupid celebration in the hall, which consisted of just 3-5 performances,which was practically SO RETARTED. zzz.

The funniest thing was when the emcees came out from behind the curtains, she was like asking us to be high and we had to give some claps, the whole Secondary 4/5 in the gallery, were like laughing so much cause it was totally lame.

Then when they were calling out the classes for the best classes for BYD, Er was like 'SOOOOOOOOOOON'. THEN EVERYONE WENT 'SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON' *silence* 'RUI!!!!!!' LOL the other classes were like 'walao. so lame' but we all ROFL-ed. lol.

today was fun.

2006-06-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

second day at school. carried my brother's bag to school. Super Cute bag. haha.

school wasn't really fun today. Fell asleep during POA and History lessons. zzz. lol. been really sleepy for a few days. probably still due to the lack of weekend sleep. after english, ray, yz, hiok and me were walking back to class and then we saw the Deadly aura walking in front of us. LOL. started joking alot then suddenly she disappeared and then when we went down the steps, Hiok touched the deadly aura! LOL.

blah. went home. fell asleep before tuition. woke up grumpy and quiet. didn't wanna show my stupid temper to my parents. msged her while going to tuition. and then. after tuition. I felt the void created in my heart ever since she left me. it felt so weird. it felt so empty.

I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.

sigh. everything in my life is crumbling down.

2006-06-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

first day at school for term was a bad one. went to school. heard that she didn't have her nametag with her. i stopped carrying around her nametag ever since she left. life was never the same without her.

had assembly, thought that Don wasn't gonna come, then he suddenly appeared at the back of the class, with slippers. he was having so much difficulty walking la. after anthem and school song, 'Lao' lao shi called all of the sec 4 and 5s to stay back after that to lecture us for walking on grass. and since there wasn't newspaper given to us, so many people were caught for having long hair. -.- super retarded la.

first period for chinese, we had our teacher changed from Xu lao shi to Deng lao shi. stupid PMS woman. zzz. then she made us write our feelings yesterday because it was a day before school reopen. which was so. -.-

Physics was super boring can? it was. like. so sian until i started msging her. and since i thought someone was jioing her, i asked her la. i forgot to mention that i asked the guy earlier whether he was really jioing her. cause i had suspected it a few days back. they'd been talking about each other alot. okay. so she asked me to concentrate since she was sick and she couldn't really. like msg. she had to rest. yea.

after school, as i was on my way to the health checkup at SGH, she replied saying that he really was jioing her. then i was like WTF. he told me that he wasn't when i asked him that morning. it then came to my mind that. even my friends, whose bonds i hold onto so tightly, lied to me, and that everything in this world was so superficial and so fake. everything was so filled with lies.

maybe all this is predestined by Him. i'm starting to believe there really is nothing worth for me to live on anymore. since i've already lost everything in life.
family.
friends.
her.

2006-06-25T16:56:00.000+08:00

To side track from the hatred abit and since i'm perfectly void of feelings now. i think it'd be best to post something nice. haha.

mm. i woke up worrying about the DSA auditions to VJC. Xiang le told me that the Sheng students in VJC were 2 each for Gaoyin and Zhongyin. Which made the chances to enter VJC via DSA even harder. To just make it known to everyone reading again, it really wasn't good. Well. started sms-ing midget and sarene, asking whether it was okay not to pray after that, and whether if i had just prayed once, He would listen to my prayers. sigh. this is all getting me worried. zzz. Hope that He would really listen, and let me through.

After tuition, she msged me, and said. we're unable to go back to the past. because there's a huge problem. she never really trusted anyone, and that. she thought i was lying. about all my feelings to her, and stuff. all i'd do. well. maybe, maybe not. this is probably a huge obstacle between us. mega-huge sigh.

went home, had this HUGE craving to use the computer. so i came online. saw midget and went to talk to her. wanted to help her upload her pictures, which she requested yesterday night. then she went offline. ><

blogging with my brother's blog background music surely turns one's mood down. if your life is really down at this period of time. listen to the lyrics. its chinese and some korean i think. its seriously nice. i wanna steal it from him soon. haha. watch out bro. before i bite. (x

tml is school reopen. super retarded can? homework? what is homework? can it be eaten?

well. i'm off already. father doesn't want me to use the computer for too long. bye all. <3

2006-06-23T19:22:00.000+08:00

my head pounds like a stupid freaking machine. been awake since 22nd june till 23rd june. no sleep. zzz. kinda cause my parents are abroad, and also i was a little devil.

was supposed to get my testimonial from guo lao shi today at school. told them i wasn't going because i was not feeling well. *yea. how fake. -.-* then my junior smsed me and said guo lao shi didn't go to school. i was like wtf? how to get my testimonial now? zzz. i don't even know whether i'm required to hand in my testimonial already anyway since i've already went for the VJC auditions and mr teo said just bring the application form. mm. confused-

oh yea. since i'm already in a 'not so good mood' i think i'll start posting about that unmentionable.

a few days ago i was blog hopping, and i went to minhui's blog, and i saw that unmentionable's name as one of her links. so i clicked on it, and shock and anger rushed through my mind like it was gonna blow my head inside out. i sped-read her blog, and i found out. what a fake person she really is. she's like. 'oh i've already changed to become a better person. but no one ever listens. boohoohoo.' yea right. well. i kept that thought. maybe it was true. and i was being fair. and so. i continue to read. now here's the shit. the incident about me losing my position as a councillor beacuse i laughed at her and because 'i called her a b*tch' (it was tedson who did it.), she put it in her blog, as though it was my fault. look what she said. quote: "and whilst i was wondering what my other friend told me, i nearly did the unthinkable. i wanted to go up to the 2nd level of the bus to talk things through with him, to settle our one and a half year dispute. but fear gripped me like a claw. and it held me down in my seat. i'm scared it's too late to salvage whatever friendship we had. why did i have to be like that? why did he have to push things too far? why did it turn out like that?" i was like wtf? it wasn't even me who pushed things as far as she thought it was. it was her FATHER who did it. He sent the e-mail to the school proclaiming that I called her a b*tch, and demanded for something to be done. zzz. oh yea. and guess what. she came to talk to me a few days later, and said. 'I didn't know my dad was going to send the e-mail to the school. -.- if she was the one that started all this shit, then of course she'd know everything that was going on right?

that wasn't all. i can't remember what else she wrote about me. but i definitely remember the things she wrote about Tedson, her ex-boyfriend. lemme recollect my memories before i tell you guys.

2006-06-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

mm. kinda weird having a new blog. its hard to think about what to write. since i'm not good at words.
oh well. I figured that iwebtunes music didn't work so well and it was screwing up my whole template so i removed the background song. (something midget said to psycho me to removing it). something about. 'nowadays people have music on while they use the computer so you put background music also useless. they already got music and they will find it more irritating only' lol. seems bizzare. but quite true. a little tip for those people out there with some background music. think about it. people get irritated easily especially if they got their own music on. and your blog background music gets in the way of their own personal time with the music they have. they'd rather close your window, than to click on their music player and press the 'pause' button. what's more iwebmusic ain't really that fast. it takes time to upload, and it sometimes even screws up your whole blog. take mine for example. I put some html code onto the status bar for it to display something i want it to display, and all iwebmusic did was to disregard that script and screwed up that whole dam thing.
so, think about it, you guys. backgound music? nah. not this time. (x

2006-06-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

Blog revival.
Thanks xiuwen for getting me my background music.
Thanks minhui for inspiring me to get a remake of my blog.
The animation below depicts what i went through to get this remake of the blog done.